My wish lists, when I'm dying ...

Dear All,

Normally, we don't know exactly when, where or how we would die.

I am trying my best to prepare my own death without causing troubles to the people around me by practicing vipassana meditation. If I can not avoid hospitalization, below is my final wish lists to the doctors, nurses and caretakers.

When I'm dying, if I'm not be able to be fed .....
Do not pour foods into my stomach through tube or inject medicines thro' my veins.
Let the body system go in natural process.
Do remember that our body has limited time and capabilities (sankhara bavana).

When I'm dying, if I'm breathing difficultly .....
Please do not put artificial respirator on the mouth.
Let me stay on my own natural breath.
You may observe my breath and note your own breath (arnarpana nusatti).

When I'm dying, if I'm suffering severe pains .....
Do not give me pain relievers, injections or medicines that would make me get unconsciousness.
Let me stay on noting on the pains (vedanar nusatti).
Be reminded to note that you may face the similar sufferings.

When I'm dying, if I'm in concious mind ......
Let me hear "Maha Sati Pahtana Sutta - by Bamaw Sayardaw Phayargyi".

When I'm dying, if I'm wondering and lost conscious .....
Do share metta and/or dhammar nusati bervanna arround me, and stay quitely.

When I'm dying, do see me in the process of facing the death soberly .....
It's not time to cry while watching, but to see how you should face death or "Marana" when the time comes to you.

It won't be necessary to do traditional ritual after death since my body (and mind) has always been maintained under the Three Jewels: Buddha, Dhamma and Shangha by myself.

My bodies (organs) have already been donated to SGH after death.
So, be equanimity to it .....
It is up to SGH, but request to examine how the body is different from others. It should be benefited to the mankind.

You may do offering to the monks as we do traditionally (in Burmese style) for your sake.

I do not want to cause anyone's troubles or concerns over the death.
Do forgive me if I had ever caused anyone of you insulted, troubled or abused physically, metally or verbally.

This is the way, I think, a good buddhist should face death.

May you all attain meg, phol, niban ...

Note:

• This is not a suicidal note.
• Dying this way is not my expectation. But, I will encourage to the people I care to accept this way. And I will be guiding the patient to whom I attend in this way.
  
• Ending the life at home before Buddha's Image peacefully is prefered.
  
• I do not like hospitalization and the way most hospitals are caring over the dying patients today.
• This note was written in the memories of my mom who passaway on 2nd Sept, 2010.
• SGH - Singapore General Hospital